Sharpion's Dream

Nobody wants to die...and neither do I. But what would it be like if we were to crave death? Must I be sad and lonely and feel life is bad To crave and yearn for the last breath. So many things that hurt me I cannot understand...I cry...why must I be put through the joy and pain...over and over again. To lift me up and then shut me down...the thought of knowing it goes down is really much worse than the joy of knowing things will get better. But unlike the latter, I can always feel that its going to be sad. Maybe I'm scared but it is who I am...how do I be strong and avoid this...I don't know. It's like you always wonder how you'll feel at your last moment...the inevitable...u distract yourself and say hey its a long time more...but it's coming...surely and you will go through it. Make the best of life is what people say, so when it comes you'll feel worse that you lost it all. Is there a consolation? Is there a heaven? Even if I take the route of sadness I lose...

I was angry with my friend: I told my wrath, my wrath did end. I was angry with my foe; I told it not, my wrath did grow. And I water'd it in fears, Night & morning with my tears; And I sunned it with my smiles And with soft deceitful wiles. And it grew both day and night, Till it bore an apple bright; And my foe beheld it shine, And he knew that it was mine, And into my garden stole When the night had veil'd the pole: In the morning glad I see My foe outstretch'd beneath the tree - William Blake Just sharing one of my favourite poems :)

Cool Stuff Got this off an email (thanks LG): CUP & COOKIES Smart cup in which you can put 2-3 of your favourite cookies. You don't need extra plates. It's made for right handed and left handed. LOCK-CUP Lock Cup - Anti-Theft Coffee Cup. Are you tired of others stealing your coffee cup? Well now there's a solution. The Lock - Cup has a hole which prevents most people from using it. Only the owner of the cup can use his/hers shaped key to close the hole. BUTTER CUTTER One Click Butter Cutter controls your portion as an important part of staying healthy. This ingenious butter cutter delivers one standard pat with each click of the handle. DAYCLOCK What day is today? You don't know? Then you need a DayClock. It's uniquely designed to keep track of weekly events like your golf day, card night, movie night, and so much more. It's ideal for vacations and cruises when it's easy to lose track of the day. LASER SCISSORS Laser ScissorsCutt...

Happy 30th Bday to Me Just wanted to share the biggest lesson I have learnt perhaps in all 30 years of my life. It is also the latest lesson. Do not be afraid of change...I have always been a sentimental person...i love to horde stuff, old wrappers, cards, boxes etc. Its becoz i find it hard to let go of the past...my good memories serve as some sort of benchmark in my life...i have always believed that the best time of my life has already passed...my youth was sheltered, carefree, fun, no worries etc. Now i worry about everything, there is a lot of stress everywhere, problems...things can be nice too but its just not the same...no more 3 mth holidays with no commitments...sigh. I keep thinking that the best days are all gone... but ive learnt to look to create new memories in the future...better ones...things will never be the same...people will never always be there...but new people will come, new experiences and new meaning..yes the old was good...but its time for it to go...nothing...

My iPhone If you read the previous post, i spent the entire weekend at home...i found out in a forum that they had finally cracked the new firmware for the iPhone..excited, i started research....to cut a LONG story short..i solved it after 6 hours. YES my iPhone is perfectly working now :D The only problem remains, which phone do i use? my trusty super functional Dopod 838pro or my pretty awesome to use, though less functional iPhone. Must admit, at first i tot the iPhone was just a showy toy that was quite useless...it was not until i really played around with it that i realized that Apple had really come up with seriously innovative stuff! Even the SMS-ing function is different where SMSes will be sorted via person like a conversation...instead of viewing SMSes by date/time, u see them by person first then date/time..simple? yes...and highly effective. Also another cool thing is Navicon...this online service that integrates seamlessly with the iPhone and google maps to use wifi stat...

Sinusitis This was a terrible long weekend for me...our office declared Fri off for the holidays and i was looking forward to having a nice relaxing weekend. This was not to be so...i was already ill (flu) all of the week and was getting better...happily. But little did i know after my 'recovery', i was to be attacked by another illness! Sinusitis attacks commonly after a cold or flu bout...reason being excess mucous from the infection cannot be drained adequately by the sinuses esp when it is aggravated by stress...i WAS very stress during that week. The slow nagging pain on my upper lip soon developed into a full blown torture...it felt as if your whole head is imploding... luckily i rushed to the doctor and got some relief...before that i was standing under the shower nearly drowning myself forcing water through my nose just to ease the pain...it is really terrible. I'm actually out of medicine now...having taken the last dose just 5mins ago. i have an impt meeting later...

The 3 Needs Ever since studying HR in NUS about 7 years ago, i have been hooked on a theory (Henry Murray). It actually states that most human motivation can be defined according to 3 main needs. These are namely: The need for Achievement (nAch): the need to accomplish tasks and do things The need for Affiliation (nAff): the need to interact and be part of a group The need for Power (nPow): the need to influence or impact people and to be in control Together with other traits of introversion and extroversion, these desires would then display themselves in various forms. In my shortsightedness or desire to simplify things, i failed to realize that there are actually exists much more than just those three. I started to think about it and then coined a new motivation...i'll call it nRlx, or rather, the need to RELAX. I felt i did not have enough of that so basically i was a stressed up wreck the most of the time. Anyway, afterawhile, i thought that hey, what about the OPPOSITE of eac...